Holy Moly

Written: 6/5/2024

Published: 6/8/2024

Mood: Stable

Listening to: Jamiroquai - Virtual Insanity

Playing: Potion Craft

Current Temperature: 87F/30C

I think it's important that I preface this post by mentioning that this whole thing sort of took me just a little over a month to figure out how to put into words, truth be told I'm still not sure if I can adequately convey what I've been thinking and feeling recently, but I think it's worth a try.

So this is gonna be how I discovered I was a transgender man.

Previously I identified as Non-Binary, Fem presenting mostly for my own safety, especially in today's environment. Granted I only really let people know about this online. No one in my real life knew this about me. I wasn't sure how they'd take it. Still, a recent trip up to the mountains kinda changed that for me.

Okay so I admit, me becoming a transgender man was partially influenced by me watching the Matrix Trilogy and getting some degree of inebriated up in the Smokies, but another part of it was me getting dragged to my Parents' church and lemme tell you, I just did NOT vibe there. While I was up in the mountains I'm sure I saw the entire breadth of the human experience, great cruelty and great kindness, and I realized that it wasn't going to matter how much I tried to squash myself into a tiny box to get acceptance. Some people just weren't gonna accept me no matter what. When I identified as Nonbinary, I had convinced myself I was some sort of blend of masculine and feminine, but after introspection, I Realized that absolutely is not the case.

So Hi, I'm Wayne. It's nice to finally meet you.

Quote of the Day:"If I wait for someone else to validate my existence, it will mean that I’m shortchanging myself." - Zanele Muholi