It's Quiet
Written: 3/27/2024
Published: 3/27/2024
Mood: Unbalanced
Listening to: Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight
Playing: Minecraft
Current Temperature: 74F/23C
I'm sure you've probably noticed by now, but it's been kind of a quiet month around the site. That's not to say I haven't really been doing anything, because I have. I've been dealing with a ton of stuff that honestly, I'd rather not talk about right now because it's been absolute hell on my mental well being. I've had to go back on antidepressants, so adjusting to those after months has been kind of a pain in the ass in addition to the other stuff I'm dealing with.
So yeah, with things being as tough as they are for me right now, can you really blame me for not putting out as much stuff as I did starting out? It's probably fine though. I'm under no obligation to try and stay relevant here after all. My content isn't going anywhere, after all. I guess I can rest easy knowing that. I just now realized how repetitive that sounds, like I bring that up in every blog post. It's almost like a litany now. Kind of interesting to see to be honest.
I understand this post probably isn't very coherent. Truth be told I'm not feeling particularly coherent. Perhaps that is just me breaking down on a fundamental level into some sort of primordial jelly, ready to be reformed into something else once the transformative process of prioritizing my mental health concludes, if it ever concludes. I don't want to be jelly forever, I can't draw or write or do web dev if I'm jelly. I am truly in my Eoarchaean Era, and it might take a very long time for something truly transformative to occur.
In the meantime, I am extremely grateful for the continued support of my friends, who, despite knowing that I am but a blob of protoplasm, have graciously provided me with a bucket to sit in while I try to pull myself into something more complex. I am not sure I would be able to get through this alone.
If I'm being honest I think I'm just writing this to write about something. Whatever, it's my blog anyway. It doesn't have to make sense.
Quote of the Day: "There is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn't." - John Green