State of the Wayne - 2024
Written: 12/18/2024
Published: 12/20/2024
Mood: Fuckin' Exhausted.
Listening to: Gloryhammer - He Has Returned
Playing: Alternating Sims 3 and 4.
Current Temperature: 78F/25C
Hoo boy. Hoo. Boy. What the hell do I have to say about where I am, here at the end of the year. I think I actually have to consult my journals on this one.
Well, the year had a promising start. I had gotten out of a toxic situationship, I started working on this website, and I began to start making my house the place I wanted to live in. I guess it had finally kicked in that my parents wouldn't be making very many trips back to visit me, so I basically had free reign. I tried to get into shape, failed that, and did a lot of drawing. I also started a daily journaling habit and a generally-less-frequently-than-daily meditation practice to try and get my head right. It was looking pretty promising for ya boi this year! I was legitimately on track to get my shit together!
Then sometime around August, things started going to shit again. Health issues, an absolutely terrifying hurricane season, friend drama, a mandatory return to office mandate, a fucking buck-wild electoral season, lack of motivation, and just a sense of general malaise hounded me from like Mid-August until basically whenever I decide to publish this blog post. It was rough and frankly I am so fucking tired.
I'm grateful to actually have the time, energy and motivation to write this post, because a lot of those issues I mentioned? I'm either still dealing with actively or they're gonna be a big issue again eventually. Yet I have to persist, because everything's got to pass in time. I'll be taking advantage of the time I do have to take a break, because who knows when I'll get my next one.
So yeah, shit sucks and it's going to suck for the forseeable future. However, that doesn't mean it'll suck in the un-forseeable future. Perhaps next time we meet, I'll actually have a plan to get my shit together.
See you in 2025.
Quote of the Day: "Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day." - A.A. Milne, "Winnie-the-Pooh"